100%

Nothing but air up there

I’m feeling another buzz come in

Mind fog, head cloud

Same again as yesterday

Say I’m lazy, I’m weak

Same as the last few weeks

Feel that chronic fatigue

Hibernate as though routine

What do you mean when you say

“0 is the normal amount of daily pain?”

Must be joking when you say everyday

You don’t wake up ready to go back to bed again

Was I ever a-ok?

Feeling mostly 100%?

Did I gaslight myself until I’m filled with hindsight?

Saying it’s just a problem for another night

Body says not right now

Got another sharp pain coming in

Head, shoulders, knees, and wrists

Which one is laying claim today?

Say I don’t try, just cry

So why don’t I just curl up and die

Feeling so useless, a leech

A burden that no one needs

What do you mean when you say

“0 is the normal amount of daily pain?”

Must be joking when you say everyday

You don’t wake up ready to go back to bed again

Was I ever a-ok?

Feeling mostly 100%?

Did I gaslight myself until I’m filled with hindsight?

Saying it’s just a problem for another night

Am I disabled

Or is it just placebo?

Hypochondriac

Or more than just an act?

Unreliable narrator

My own body’s biggest traitor

Have I always been breaking down

Is this just part of a meltdown?

Just an excuse to get off from work

Just an excuse to get free money

Labs came back with nothing again

Labs came back, you got nothing to stand on

Was I actually ever ok?

100-fucking-percent?

Was I ever a-ok?

Feeling mostly 100%?

Did I gaslight myself until I’m filled with hindsight?

Saying it’s just a problem for another night

There’s no benefits to this

Even with your cheese money

There’s no break with any of this

This island life ain’t so sunny