FP

Intro: devour every single cake, I’d break my back to bake

Is it the way I follow behind?

Can’t get you ever off my mind

I try to keep you present all the time

Cuz I treat you like property, and you’re all mine

Is it the way I’m a mess?

Cuz I’m always so obsessed?

When you criticize, I cry

Like I guilt trip all the time

I built my yandere paradise

Oxymoron when thinking about it, right?

Cuz there’s no euphoria you can find

When you give up your peace of mind

Yell at me some more

As I’m crying on the floor

I’ll take it and endure

I just want to be your whore

Oh please need me

Please need me

Cuz I tried to be what you wanted me to be

But I just became more textbook BPD

And I tried to keep ahold of my sanity

But madness already became a part of me

To lose you, would be to lose my life

If you went, a knife would end my strife

Give over 100% all of the time

For you, countless times, I would die

Clinging desperately onto thee

Oh my FP

Is it the way that you’re straight?

Have I been too boy mode as of late?

I can prove I’m a girl

Just make me your whole world

You’re my muse I’d abuse

It’s fair, cuz you use me too

Let me always validate

Add to my self-hate

Is it the way that I try

To keep all others from your side?

See through my hypocrisy

In all the ways that I be

Oh please don’t leave

Please don’t leave

Cuz I tried to be what you wanted me to be

But I just became more textbook BPD

And I tried to keep ahold of my sanity

But madness already became a part of me

To lose you, would be to lose my life

If you went, a knife would end my strife

Give over 100% all of the time

For you, countless times, I would die

Clinging desperately onto thee

Oh my FP

Stab in another knife

Taught myself that romance was strife

I chose to stay through your every lie

Cuz I saw you as my source of life

This could never be sustained

I bloodied my very name

And at the end I’m left with shame

Feeling like this torture had not much to gain

I blocked out everyone so I could only love you more

Only screwed myself when I saw I closed every door

I became someone that I completely abhor

Thinking I knew what you wanted, playing out the part of the whore

We knew it’s not forever

Tell me, “You deserve better”

I know…I know

“It’s good that you know”

Cuz I destroyed myself being what you needed me to be

Until leaving you felt like I’d be freed

And loving you was to lose my sanity

Cuz there’s nothing romantic about giving up your identity

Finally I could choose to live my own life

You taught me how to brandish my knives

Now I refuse to keep living out my delusional lies

Cuz I know I gotta say goodbye

Letting go of thee

No longer my FP

Cuz it’s not love, it’s vulgar

When you obsess to the point of ulcers

I accept that fantasy is over

Now let’s walk away with closure