And Apologise To My World

And I know I’ve already said it a hundred times before

But to you I shall keep apologizing to

For you are the one I cannot help but adore

I want to prove I can be better and make it through

And you are just so kind

And that’s why it’s so hard

To keep thoughts of you off my mind

But then there creeps in the thoughts that are scarred

And I’m so sorry for how slow I heal

I know it seems like this will be forever

But I just need time to stop what I feel

As I know this pain from me will sever

And you are truly my world

Who else could even do this

To make these newfound feelings unfurl

And then heal me again with a kiss

And I know I’ll never truly deserve

You to forgive me and my erratic behavior

But I simply want to grow the nerve

And prove to you that this will not be another failure

And you are completely to who I belong

Someone I never want to hurt again

And so that is why I must be more strong

In order to no longer bring and instead heal your pain

And I honestly disgust myself

So I wish to make amends for my heart

I know this attitude is bad even for my health

You deserve more than for me to have just start

And you always know how to brighten my day

The sunshine that wraps around me

Even when my mind is a cloudy haze

And you make me feel that from my demons I’ll be free

And for you I have so much remorse

As I know too much I weather

But my happiness has found you as it’s source

I promise I want to, I shall, I will do better