Connectivity

Nothing was clearer that day

We set our eternal bond

And now it’s like whatever it is I say

I say it wrong

Short tempered, and snide

It’s like we’re only trying to get by

You do keep on trying

But saying I want to feels like lying

And we’re losing that connectivity

Even if we have the “I love you”

“I love you” down

It’s just a chore or another festivity

When I’m with you

Why do I feel so crushed and drowned?

I’m losing myself

Wanting to be with you

But loving you has never been the issue

Oh where has that connectivity gone?

You looked so annoyed again today

I messed up once more

I guess it mutual, by the way

It all feels like such a bore

I’ve limited who I am

When it’s next to you that I stand

It starts to feel so fake

When it’s truly me that you can’t take

And we’re losing that connectivity

Even if we have the “I love you”

“I love you” down

It’s just a chore or another festivity

When I’m with you

Why do I feel so crushed and drowned?

I’m losing myself

Wanting to be with you

But loving you has never been the issue

Oh where has that connectivity gone?

I found you, I love you, I decided to keep you

You love me, maybe still want me, never want to leave me

I’m struggling to find that spark, that compatible view

Even if you wanna be here I sometimes think I should set you free

And we’re losing that connectivity

Even if we have the “I love you”

“I love you” down

It’s just a chore or another festivity

When I’m with you

Why do I feel so crushed and drowned?

I’m losing myself

Wanting to be with you

But loving you has never been the issue

Oh where has that connectivity gone?

For every love song I write can’t cover up

All these feelings inside me that’s bottled up

I’m feeling so scared and so confused for what I should do

Never once did I think that my love could come back to hurt you

Where has that connectivity gone?

Where has my connection to you gone?