Phoenix

https://youtu.be/RSceeJTJXWQ?si=hk5zrGZGW1nL_AOw&t=45

I just want to say forget it

Throw up my hands and give up on the world

But believe me when I say

The person I fucking hate

Most of all is really just myself

I’m tired of being angry

I’m tired of being mistreated all the time

The world keeps burning me all these scars

Even when I try so fucking hard

I feel punished cuz I exist

I became a Phoenix

Grew from the ashes

I’ll spread my wings

I’ll fly from the hurt

I won’t give up on the world

Cuz proving you wrong is worth living

I am a Phoenix

Rise from the ashes

So I can prove you wrong

Now too angry to die

I’m now just living out of spite

And you’ll have to deal with me again

Every time you burn out my flames

I always say sorry

Sorry that I’m not what you want

Believe me when I say

I say it every fucking day

To myself cuz I hate me too

I hold too many grudges

Things that seem so small but it’s all I feel

Can’t forgive, can’t forget

It’s like I’m in emotional debt

I wanna wash off as to heal

I became a Phoenix

Grew from the ashes

I’ll spread my wings

I’ll fly from the hurt

I won’t give up on the world

Cuz proving you wrong is worth living

I am a Phoenix

Rise from the ashes

So I can prove you wrong

Now too angry to die

I’m now just living out of spite

And you’ll have to deal with me again

Every time you burn out my flames

Oh I know my flame

Keeps burning out again and again

This isn’t a way to live

But it’s the reason I am still here

Maybe one day

I’ll turn to myself with better things to say

It’s maybe just wishful thinking

But hope’s supposed to be better than hate

I became a Phoenix

Grew from the ashes

I’ll spread my wings

I’ll fly from the hurt

I won’t give up on the world

Cuz proving you wrong is worth living

I am a Phoenix

Rise from the ashes

So I can prove you wrong

Now too angry to die

I’m now just living out of spite

And you’ll have to deal with me again

Every time you burn out my flames

Hey wouldn’t it be nice

If this Phoenix’s next life

Was lived for themself

And not someone else