Protect My Peace

Let’s play a game

Where we give me all the blame

Yeah I’m genuinely filled with shame

But I wasn’t the only one in the frame

I ain’t gonna deny all the ways I fucked up as well

But you’d abandoned me during my times of hell

Always had to be on your terms

Despite my begging in tears waiting for you to confirm

Kept meeting just me only halfway

Next to everyone else, into the background I’d fade away

Gaslit myself to think I made the whole thing up in my mind

Needed to face it once more just to see if I regret leaving it all behind

Closure close this door

Already tolerated this before

So fucking ready to move on

“Goddamn, got me writing another new song”

Tired of screaming into voids

Only to just lose my voice

Always kept me waiting

Just to be a fairweather friend

Kept feeling shut out

Taught me to feel doubt

Your mixed signals, lady

Kept me going crazy

You’re so nice, and that makes this sad

But finally I can put my guilt at ease

Cuz Kitten, you ain’t bad

But you’re bad for my peace

You’ve become a stain I smudged into an old tee

Now just a pyjama top, an insignificant memory

You can keep your Bad Girl Fever

No longer give a shit you won’t leave her

I used to wonder and worry why I left you

Laughing at myself for this overdue breakthrough

Realised I really don’t care no more about your forgiveness

I’ve done what I can to set myself free, and man it feels like bliss

No more crying to a ghost

When I needed you the most

You’re just a brick wall beauty

“Goddamn, could you even fucking hear me?!”

Tired of screaming into voids

Only to just lose my voice

Always kept me waiting

Just to be a fairweather friend

Kept feeling shut out

Taught me to feel doubt

Your mixed signals, lady

Kept me going crazy

You’re so nice, and that makes this sad

But finally I can put my guilt at ease

Cuz Kitten, you ain’t bad

But you’re bad for my peace

Now when I make this nostalgic drive

I can smile knowing no thanks to you, I made it out alive

The pain I burned into my gut made me feel haunted

But passing by the trees no longer bring what’s unwanted

So how about you make up your fucking mind

And stop wasting my goddamn time

Stop saying “yes” when you won’t commit

“Gods, again, with this bullshit?!”

Got me feeling like a creep

With all the messages I had to repeat

“Queen tonite?” “Queen tonite?”

And that bridge I rebuilt? Fuck it, hand me a light

Tired of screaming into voids

Only to just lose my voice

Always kept me waiting

Just to be a fairweather friend

Kept feeling shut out

Taught me to feel doubt

Your mixed signals, lady

Kept me going crazy

You’re so nice, and that makes this sad

But finally I can put my guilt at ease

Cuz Kitten, you ain’t bad

But you’re bad for my peace

After all my remorse and times I cried

Don’t know why I thought to even try

You’re not even worth bringing out my knife

Wish you the best, now I’m moving on with my life