Sea Levels
- C.S.R.
- May 4, 2022
- 2 min read
Updated: Apr 20
I’ve got my sea levels
I live like a tide
You’ve climbed in this boat so prepare for a ride
My moon’s unstable
I either crash or I’m still
Wish I could save you if only I had the will
I can rain down heavy
Or I just melt through your arms
Never know if it’ll be the storm or just the calm
And I just keep spiraling in circles
Drowning in my ocean for an eternity of cycles
And I’m so silent but I’m screaming
Not sure if I can take it so I’d rather be dreaming
I don’t have the answers
Or really the questions
I need to ask to be given them
Don’t know how
I can explain myself
Don’t even know if I’m a boy or a girl now
Never sure what to do
Give too much a pull or a push
What upon a star it is I should wish
Cuz I won’t accept the love I’m given
I’d rather you hate me than ever be forgiven
Cuz I don’t wanna accept your kisses
I’d rather you yell at me than ever be missed
I don’t feel worth it
I know I’m not worth it
So why do you keep me around like I am?
Love and support
Is supposed to make you happy
Yet it’s all I have and it almost feels worse
I just wish you could see me
In the same light that I do
Then maybe you could all finally leave me
Cuz all I do is just taint all of my happy
Burning ugly holes in those sweet lil memories
And all I want is to rise up like a Phoenix
But I doubt that anyone can ever really fix this
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